I don't want to voice it out.
I wanted to do so badly though.
Your actions, your expressions.
Just speaks loudly for my thoughts.
My heart skipped a beat for that moment.
As if I was nervous and guilty.
But, it just kept pounding harder every moment ever since.
Who cares?
Even if I cried in the night,
You two will never know.
How I wish I could be a heavy sleeper
Like how I was back in Primary 6 or slightly younger.
Now, times have change.
Thanks for the memories You two left me with.
As a child, growing up,
I wouldn't dare demand more.
Home was where the sense of security should be.
But I don't think its always that way.
You scold me for not tugging in early.
Do you even know why I am doing so?!
I just hate to face the reality of life.
Of what have to occur through certain nights.
I know its entertainment to you guys.
But to me, I don't think its the right way to do so.
Whenever I hear of it, I'll shiver my night through.
Getting eyebags or puffy eyes the next day.
Or just few hours later.
In school, these sad, unconsiderate thoughts just fills, corrupts my mind.
All I can do now is...
To pray about it and I know GOD answers prayers.

xoxo,

G.